Foolishness in Me

Foolishness in Me

I've been here before
It's nothing new to me
I'm familiar with all these feelings
That's how it has to be

I've felt the smallness
The foolishness too
Of feeling like I'm good enough
But it's too good to be true

I question all the whys
And surmise it's all me
I wonder if I was different
Would he finally see

How can I escape
The feelings that I feel
When time after time
The evidence seems so real

It's always the same
I'm never the right girl
I'm always just the friend
Even after my beauty is unfurled

It's no wonder why I question
“What is wrong with me?”
When no matter how good I am
It's not what I “should” be

Though my feelings are tender
And are so very real
I know deep down inside
They're irrational to feel

So no matter how many more men
Decide to pass by me too
I know one day one will love me
With affection so real and true

©Alisha Gilbert
July '10